I’ve been wonderful. For the past 4 months I’ve been talking to a great guy who has made me feel beautiful again and is probably the only reason I didn’t attempt to kill myself again. I haven’t purged in 3 weeks, nor cut in 2.
I’ve branched out to people and accepted a lot more friends into my life. I logged out of tumblr and logged into real life. Avoiding this website was the best thing I ever did. Recovery has been sweet, and I think I might be in love. I’m really looking forward to continuing the pursuit of happiness and life.
After being away from Tumblr for a long while, you can finally see just how toxic this website really is.
The worst part of laxative abuse is probably the waiting. Mine usually take 4 hours to start working, but some times they just cause major abdominal pain for an hour that has me running to the restroom with no product. It continues for a while. Shaking and hurting. It’s awful. Then it happens. Everything starts to come out. you have to decide whether to sit on the toilet for the next hours or lay in bed in pain for a few minutes and run back and forth to the restroom. It just feels so worth it. I don’t want to be addicted.